I'm not very good with words... and when it comes down to expressing myself, or opinions, I fumble, a lot. But here goes...
I will hold back any talk of religions, for it's a touchy topic... I will say this.
While I sit back sometimes, and watch all that goes on around me... I ponder, about each event that has taken place on this planet... wars, battles, riots, plagues, natural disasters, death, birth, the list could go on and on...
I learned something, something that's very hard to explain... something that a person with... a... more sensitive sense of awareness, (I mean an acute sense of goings on wider than their own) and deeper thinking, of bigger pictures, would be able to understand if they were to experience it for themselves... You know how the earth goes through cycles, naturally wobbling on its axis, and going around in a small circle of its own, while going around the sun in an even bigger circle of its own... it's the same... I think... for humans... although with awareness, it makes it harder on us to be naturally apart of it... (if you are following me this far, thank you)
As a human, it is easy to see how easily we fall on our knees, begging for forgiveness in a world full of hurt... in troubling times, we want to stand up for what we feel in our hearts is right... we give a name to our belief, and in doing so, branding ourselves.... In my eyes, all this hurting and pain leads to nowhere...
And yet... I look even deeper into that pain and suffering... and I actually see something...
Hope...
Hope that we, as a human race... can change this planet into something... beautiful...
I have many questions... some not so easy to form on my tongue as of yet... and then there are some that I feel may have already been answered... I just never paid attention.
I had been, and still could be, struggling with the feeling of worthlessness... not the woe-is-me feeling... but 'what can I be doing...' What should I be doing right now in my life?
Oddly... instead of getting a straight forward answer... in time, I learned how to have more patience... not only with things around me... but in myself.
While we struggle just to maintain a job, and to afford the bills, pay for our children's food and clothing... there are other things going on around us that seem to get brushed aside... things like taking a break from cleaning... walking outside with friends... laughing with our older and younger siblings, or children...
While we dance a crazy dance of life... we close our eyes when the dance gets too rough and fast...
In a way, we never learn how to see what's in front of us, and behind us, and above and below and everywhere in-between... we feel that it's too much for us to take in... it can be...
but we are intelligent creatures... we can adapt to the harshest environment, and even make something more of it. We can make even the humblest piece of metal, into something glorious...
I would like to say that we are like our own mythologies... Dragons, who are known to be habitually domineering... seeing something, and taking the chance to make it our own... sometimes, we look deeper at what we are dealing with, and take into account who or what else could also be apart of this thing we are trying to take...
And then... we sometimes blindingly dive in... without thought of other risks, or things...
But, also like Dragons, we can learn from something else, and make that apart of our personalities... like kindness, charity, inspiration...
So far, from what I have gathered over these past 20+ years... we haven't changed
too much...
And maybe, for the human race... there is only so far we can mature and evolve...
But when it comes to change itself... It's closer to us than we realize....
The narrator is right... "war.... war never changes..."
At least when it comes down to what we are fighting for....
I have but one question... when we fight... why is it sometimes we ask, "what are we fighting for?"